For most of my life, I never really felt like I belonged anywhere.
I grew up in a strict Catholic family — church on Sundays, rules that felt heavier than the hymn books, and a quiet pressure to be someone I wasn’t. I believed in God, and I still do, but even as a child I could sense there was more out there. I’d stare at the moon and feel it whisper to me. I’d read about Greek, Norse, and Egyptian gods and feel something stir — as if all these stories were pieces of one great truth.
But curiosity wasn’t encouraged; it was corrected.
I was called weird, miserable, and too much. I didn’t have the words then, but I do now: I was searching for meaning in a world that didn’t know how to hold me. I was trying to understand myself — a soul who felt God in the stars, compassion in prayer, and energy in every living thing.
For years, I carried that confusion quietly. I went through life wearing masks, playing roles, trying to be acceptable — but never whole. I prayed the way I was taught, but I also felt drawn to the ways others prayed, meditated, or danced their devotion. It wasn’t rebellion; it was recognition. Every path I touched had a fragment of truth, but I was too afraid to admit that my faith didn’t fit into one neat box.
It wasn’t until my mum passed that something inside me shifted.
Her death cracked me open. The noise of her expectations — and of my own fears — finally fell silent. For the first time, I felt free to listen to my soul, not the voice that told me who I should be. I stopped asking permission to explore and started walking my own path.
That’s when I began to see who I truly am:
a woman who prays and manifests, who loves Jesus and the moon in equal measure, who believes in energy, empathy, and evolution. I’m not one thing — I’m everything I’ve lived through woven into something sacred.
Today, I call myself The Celestial Sacred Heart Alchemist.
It’s more than a title — it’s a declaration.
It means I blend faith and science, prayer and presence, heaven and humanity. I believe healing begins in the heart and ripples outward like stardust. I believe God speaks through energy, intuition, and love — through all the ways we choose to listen.
My journey hasn’t been neat or simple, but it’s been real.
And if you’ve ever felt “too different,” “too deep,” or “too much,” maybe you’ll recognise yourself in these words too. You don’t have to fit in — you just have to return home to the truth that’s been waiting for you all along.
Because that’s what alchemy really is —
turning everything you’ve been through into light.
I’m The Celestial Sacred Heart Alchemist — a soul who blends faith, science, and the unseen. Guided by moonlight and compassion, I believe healing begins in the heart and ripples outward like stardust. My work is about transformation — turning pain into purpose, chaos into calm, and self-doubt into self-love. Rooted in both spirit and humanity, I honour the divine in every form: the whisper of prayer, the rhythm of breath, and the quiet wisdom that connects us all.
My creations are an extension of this belief — each kit, blend, and ritual I craft through The Holistic Self-Care Kit Company is a little piece of alchemy, designed to help others find light in their own darkness. Every product I make carries a touch of faith, energy, and intention — a reminder that healing isn’t found in perfection, but in the courage to begin again.
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